What Meditation Has Done for Me…
Many moons ago, when I heard the word meditation, I started to freak out. I was thinking, how in the world am I going to sit and think about nothing? Well, the first thing about that is that I had a total misconception about what meditation actually is because I can tell you what it is not, it is not sitting and not thinking about anything. But I know this is such a common misconception.
But looking back on the journey to this point, I realize now that there was something bigger at play. It wasn’t that I couldn’t take time to stop and meditate, it was that I was resistant to it, and I didn’t realize it, and I didn’t (subconsciously) want to know why I was resistant to it.
The fact of the matter is this none of us are getting through life without experiencing some form of trauma. We are all experiencing or touching on a previous trauma every single day. The more I learned about energy and specifically trauma and how it impacts your mind and physical body, the more I understood myself and all the feelings and emotions I was experiencing.
You see, sometimes we experience trauma, and we don’t discharge that energy completely or at all, and then it finds somewhere to live in our body. Then we move about the world, and that trauma gets pushed on over and over again(ever heard of pushing someone’s buttons), and gradually you have less patience, more anxiety, and overall you feel unbalanced more often than not.
So, what has a meditation and mindfulness practice done for me specifically?
Well, for starters, I used to wake up every morning feeling as though the inside of my body was vibrating. That was how I started my day, and guess what, that pretty much set the tone for the day.
That was when I decided to get up 30 minutes early and meditate for 20 minutes before I did anything else, and you know what? The internal vibration feeling went away. I would set my alarm clock for a full hour before I really needed to be up for the day (so I could hit snooze a few times if I’m being honest), and then I would make my way to my designated mediation spot, and I would listen to a 20-minute guided meditation. I did this for months, I was up before everyone else, and I set myself up for the day before I did anything else. I can now do my meditation later in the day if I desire, but this practice of getting up and “taking care of myself first” helped to change everything.
I started seeing the benefits in all the other aspects of my life also… I was way less reactive, I had more patience, and I didn’t freak out about things.
The perfect example was that I couldn’t find my wallet. Wallets are important, right? Mine is; it has my license, insurance cards, money, credit cards, etc. But I didn’t get the fight-or-flight panicked feeling; instead, I was calm because what was the point of getting myself all worked up? But I didn’t even have those thoughts; it was just automatic to stay calm and work through the “problem” and get to the solution.
The outcome would be the same whether I freaked out or not. I either would find my wallet, or I wouldn’t. If I didn’t find it, I would have to move through the process of canceling and replacing the contents, whether I was calm and collected or upset. Getting upset didn’t cross my mind, and I attribute that to my mindfulness practice.
Now I’m human, and I’m not claiming to be perfect. I try to, as I think of it, “stay in my seat” as much as possible, but sometimes emotions take over, and it’s ok! I give myself the love and grace to be ok, knowing I’m not going to handle everything perfectly.
But more often than not, I’m a better person, mother, wife, friend, etc., because of the “work” I have done and continue to do each day by leading a life rooted in my mindfulness and mediation practice.
My hope is to help as many people as possible because I know what it’s like to feel trapped living in and with my “stuff,” and I’ve seen and felt how it comes out as physical symptoms that continue to take me away from the life I want to live.
I never want anyone to feel the way I felt before, so that is why I’m expanding my business and offerings to help others.
Please, if any of this resonates with you, check out the information on meditation and a mindfulness practices, and if I can help you in any way, please reach out. I’d love to be a part of your journey.
Peace, Love, and Patience
XX,
Jenna
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